Thursday, June 18, 2009

No, this isn't my new tattoo....they removed the stitches yesterday from this last surgery. Although I was VERY glad to be past the stitch removal phase - the sight of this incision was a little startling.

Now I work on the 'work of healing'. I will need to intentionally inflict pain on myself in order to gain strength and grip and wholeness again. I've tried ignoring that I've had this surgery and that doesn't seem to be helping, so now it's time to be intentional.

I feel like I'm speaking to my brothers and sisters who are facing - head on - the forgiveness issue that we are teaching about at PCC. You've tried ignoring the hurt and that just hasn't worked. It's TIME, dear one, to be intentional. To TOUCH THE WOUND. To allow the oil of the Holy Spirit and the hand of the Great Physician to do what needs to be done for YOU to be free!!!!! It's TIME. I know it hurts but there is freedom on the other side - health on the other side - joy on the other side. It's worth it!


Monday, June 8, 2009

Are we having fun?

We are getting to see family of some sort for 4 weekends in a row. That is just amazingly fun.

Look at these little smiley faces! Don't they make you smile just looking at them? Oh my stars.

I haven't made it out of the 'can't believe how much this still hurts' zone after the surgery quite yet. Last night my mind was searching for whatever is '*true and *honest and *just and *pure and *lovely and of *good report'. I needed to direct my thoughts - where should my mind land in the middle of all of this pain. *Philippians tells us what to think on.......the Holy Spirit promises to be the Comfort we need....and Jesus says that He'll never leave us or forsake us - ever.

I'm just reminding us all the we don't usually need help remembering pain, but, remembering the good stuff is what will bring us Life and strength. Purposefully remember something or someone that makes you smile right now. And, thank God for that person or that experience that makes you smile.

"Count your many blessings, name them one by one - and it will surprise you what the Lord has done!"

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Today's the day...

Ever had one of those days that is THE DAY? You prepare for it and try to prepare for what it'll be like AFTER 'The Day'. Well, today is 'the day'. Wrist surgery #4. New doctor, specializing in hand surgery. New town. New day. I asked the Lord to please either heal my wrist or remind me of the pain (to help me with the surgery choice) and He chose the second option (yep, to my disappointment!)

I blogged about my wrist situation early in my blogging journey - it's the one with a lovely picture of my wrist a year ago - so I'm not going to go over the cause, etc. right now. Today's goal is release of scar tissue from the main nerve that was damaged awhile ago. And cover that nerve with a disolvable covering so scar tissue won't bring grief again.

Just using this way of sharing my life to answer some questions and ask for some prayer over this over part of my journey. I'd LOVE to play the piano in worship, hold my grandbabies, carry the groceries, write in my journal, enter my bookkeeping at Hull & Hull without pain. Love it.

I'm greatly enjoying the peace I'm experiencing today. I've been having a battle with fear because of my difficulty getting and staying sedated during surgery. But today - because of the prayers of people that I get to ride on - like riding a raft down the Rogue River - there is peace. Hallelujah. No really - HALLELUJAH.

I feel instructed by the Holy Spirit that God is going to 'do something cool today'. So, I'm looking for the cool thing!

Thanks for listening....