Friday, October 17, 2008

I ALMOST obeyed.....

One of the funny things that happens with our little Webber boys is this: You call their name, they look at you & their face tells you that they are actively deciding whether to come or not. (I might tell you right now that I've prayed that our grandkids would not look at me and then run away in terror! You know - you've seen it - a child just LOOKS at someone and something strikes them weird and they burst out crying. I don't need to be anyone's 'favorite' anything - I just don't want something like my honkin' nose to make my own grandkids cry at the sight of me. Ok, that said...) Sometimes, one of the boys will have something (like the TV remote) in their hand and you are asking them to give it to you. (Ok, yes, I've been known to let the grandboys even play with the TV remote cuz I can't seem to say a whole lot of "no's" to them yet. I'll work on that, I promise.) The point - they head toward me, sometimes even holding out their hand like they fully intend to come for a hug or give me whatever the prize is in their hand and at the last possible moment - they veer off!!! They take a quick right or left and run another direction! It does make me laugh, but I don't laugh so much when I think of how many times I do that to God. I hear Him call - I head His direction - I even hold out to Him what I KNOW He's asking for (for my own good) -and then somehow I veer off. Somehow I get distracted, or I decide I really want to keep what's in my hand (or that attitude in my heart) a little while longer. How does that make Him feel, I wonder. Sometimes I'm trying to hold 50 things (or people/situations/heartaches) in my hand and He JUST WANTS TO HELP - but I veer off with my big load and don't quite make it to His embrace. Lord, help me to run to You - fully. To know the joy in your heart when I do (like my heart enjoys the boys when they actually run over for a hug in the middle of their busyness) - and enjoy You.
"Come unto Me all you who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you rest". Thank you for Your patience with me, Lord.....

1 comment:

A Word Weaver said...

Boy, can I relate to this great blog, my friend! I often think these lines of the old hymn were written for my wondering heart: Prone to wander, Lord I feel it; Prone to leave the God I love.
Here's my heart, O take and seal it, Seal it to Thy courts above. Thanks for the insights and the reminder NOT to veer away from true obedience. Hugs, ~Jodi