Heart To Heart

God has said, "Hold up your cup and I will fill it with My rain." So simple. So hard. I want the cup to be filled up faster than rain - I want a hose. Please, Father? I've longed, for too long, to be 'right enough'...  "Right" enough for my parents. "Right" enough for my family." "Right" enough for people. "Right" enough for God. I'm even trying really hard to be 'right' about where the rain is so I'm holding my cup up in the right place.  I am worshiping enough?  Praying enough?  Listening enough?  Longing enough? Growing up I heard people say something like, "Stand under the spout where the Glory comes out!" Where's the dang spout???? I'm doing 5 Bible studies (or classes) right now - surely the rain is in there somewhere? I want to do things right.  I want to be right . God doesn't seem impressed. He says, "Let go.  You have never, are not - a...

We went on a road trip....with a portion of the trip planned with reservations and everything...the rest - - - under the "let's just see what happens' category.  If you know Dennis at all, you know that he is a planner.  He likes order.  He REALLY likes order.  And, yes, there were a few messy moments. I had plans.  I anticipated deep (physical, emotional, spiritual, mental) rest, and lots of fun, and incredible clarity from God, and a significant move forward in processing my own grief and the grief of other people that I carry.  That was my plan.  I wasn't asking for  much.  :-)  And, yes, I will not be giving up my day job to be a travel agent. What we DID experience were giant moments of joy.  The kind of joy that makes your heart feel like it's swelling. I wanted to show you a video of Dennis dancing with Tilly, but I couldn't make it work so you'll have to picture that in your mind's eye.  So fun. Then there was...