Psalm 139:11 & 12
If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
even the darkness will not be dark to You;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to You.
I have never been a fan of darkness or night. The cause of that is not the subject of this blog - I just want you to understand the depth that I love the Light of God, the Hand of God, the Presence of God that never gets blocked out by darkness.
Almost two weeks ago, I experienced invasive eye surgery. It was not elective. If I wanted to keep my eyesight I would need to trust someone to punch a couple of holes in my eye and do some work.
The surgery seemed to go well, but I've had a perfect storm of complications as I've tried to recovery.
I won't load your backpack with details - the thing I'm thinking about tonight is how weird it's been to spend the last two weeks with eyes that longed for dark. Little outside light, my first experience with a pirate patch, my first experience taping my eyelids shut. (Actually, a lot of "first experiences".)
I've been alone a lot. I haven't been able to read. My brain gets tired of listening to stuff I can't see. I'm super grateful that the massive headaches are gone now - the headaches made listening to stuff not such a treat.
I've never had such long days of literal darkness.
Because I'm a person who is not a fan of darkness, this has not been my favorite season.
But I know this...."for darkness is as light to You." There hasn't been darkness for God. I might bump into walls, but I know that He is leading me. He's holding on to me. He's holding on to you no matter how dark it feels around you. He's got you.
I have set the LORD continually before me; Because He is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.
My soul clings to You; Your right hand upholds me.
Even there Your hand will lead me, And Your right hand will lay hold of me.
"For I am the LORD your God, who upholds your right hand, Who says to you, 'Do not fear, I will help you.'
He's got you. And...He's got me. Ok. Let's all sing..."He's got the who-ole world - in His Hand..."
Second verse..."He's got you and me, brother - in His hand...you and me, sister - in His hand..."