Friday, October 31, 2008

So - about the horse deal...
We have friends who hiked the Pacific Crest Trail for 3 weeks with pack-horses. We met them at Diamond Lake, just for fun, and they were down-sizing from 3 horses to 1 horse for the last 10 days. The previous pictures were taken of them loading up, and heading out....

When I look at those pictures I see 2 possibilities. One is what actually was happening - 'let's see how much this horse can REALLY handle'. One of our friends kept assuring me that the horse really LIKES doing this!

The second possibility could be seen just by studying the pictures. One could think - "maybe the load is being UNLOADED by those people." I can almost FEEL the relief of having those big packs lifted off the horse's back, one at a time.

I would love to say a great, big, huge THANK YOU to every person in my life - and in the life of others - who takes the time and effort to help UNLOAD a heavy burden - rather than piling on .
Prayers and words and kindness that makes an unbelievable difference in the way I can conquer the trail laid out for me.

I know that God is the One who ultimately wants to carry the load. I know that. I just really want us to GET that we effect each other along this journey. Thank you, thank you, thank you to those of you who help 'bear one another's burdens - and so fulfill the law of Christ'! Thank you!

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

I feel like this horse!

Friday, October 17, 2008

I ALMOST obeyed.....

One of the funny things that happens with our little Webber boys is this: You call their name, they look at you & their face tells you that they are actively deciding whether to come or not. (I might tell you right now that I've prayed that our grandkids would not look at me and then run away in terror! You know - you've seen it - a child just LOOKS at someone and something strikes them weird and they burst out crying. I don't need to be anyone's 'favorite' anything - I just don't want something like my honkin' nose to make my own grandkids cry at the sight of me. Ok, that said...) Sometimes, one of the boys will have something (like the TV remote) in their hand and you are asking them to give it to you. (Ok, yes, I've been known to let the grandboys even play with the TV remote cuz I can't seem to say a whole lot of "no's" to them yet. I'll work on that, I promise.) The point - they head toward me, sometimes even holding out their hand like they fully intend to come for a hug or give me whatever the prize is in their hand and at the last possible moment - they veer off!!! They take a quick right or left and run another direction! It does make me laugh, but I don't laugh so much when I think of how many times I do that to God. I hear Him call - I head His direction - I even hold out to Him what I KNOW He's asking for (for my own good) -and then somehow I veer off. Somehow I get distracted, or I decide I really want to keep what's in my hand (or that attitude in my heart) a little while longer. How does that make Him feel, I wonder. Sometimes I'm trying to hold 50 things (or people/situations/heartaches) in my hand and He JUST WANTS TO HELP - but I veer off with my big load and don't quite make it to His embrace. Lord, help me to run to You - fully. To know the joy in your heart when I do (like my heart enjoys the boys when they actually run over for a hug in the middle of their busyness) - and enjoy You.
"Come unto Me all you who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you rest". Thank you for Your patience with me, Lord.....

Friday, October 10, 2008

Overwhelmed by love

Four weeks ago today our little grandson Oscar became very sick. Our daughter-in-law and also her mom kept us posted as they waited for the ambulance, as the ambulance arrived and then as they did what they needed to do in the hospital. Dennis and I waited, oh, I'd say 15 minutes from the first call to hop into our car and head up to Salem - not to fix anything - just to be with them. On the way up there my heart hurt so badly for Oscar - literal pain. I thought I had a huge mom heart for our sons - boy, this grandma heart could kill a person! We would move heaven and earth for that little guy if we could. As I was praying for him I asked the Lord to show me His heart for His kids. Confession - sometimes I struggle to KNOW the love of God for myself. That He would move heaven and earth for me, if it was best. Do you ever struggle with this? I felt Him whisper, "I love you more than you love Oscar." Oh, I want to 'get' that! Just like I want Oscar to really 'get' that he is loved so, so deeply - I want to 'get' that I am loved so, so, so, so, so deeply by our Father.
Oscar is doing great - thank you, God - no tumor - thank you, God. It's a regrouping time for their little family and for all of us. So my verse for you and for me today is Eph. 3:18 - I pray that we...may have the power, together with all the saints to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ.
(The picture is Oscar and Danita - his mom - she is awesome.)

Saturday, October 4, 2008

I Shaved My Legs for This?????

Ok - confession - I really don't like to shave my legs, my armpits or even my chin. I do it (well, not my chin) but only after I decide if my day really deserves it. The day I get to have a massage - definetly shave. The day I'm meeting with people who will tell me what the church is doing that they don't like, what I have done that they don't like or even what the nursery workers are doing that they don't like - don't shave. Why am I writing about this? Because I think someone reading this is STILL trying to be perfect - all the time. I know, you won't look at me the same from now'll wonder, "will I get a rug burn if I touch her legs today?"
Relax! Enjoy the good stuff, live through and learn from the hard stuff. Shave if you want to!